I totally wussed out of my first day as a stay at home mom of two today. Jeff went back to work yesterday and Marley started his new part-time schedule for June. At least he was supposed to.
In my defense, Jena said she really needed him there for a special project today. Okay, maybe she didn't really say that. Maybe she just took one look at my spit-up-encrusted hair and blood-shot eyes and told me there was an opening today if I wanted it. Hell yes I wanted it!
It's hard to believe that there was a time, not one year ago, when I would sob uncontrollably at the thought of somone else caring for my son all day. I have since learned that Jena & Co. are far better caregivers than Jeff or I. And I now sob uncontrollably at the thought of me having to entertain Mars all day by myself with a baby attached to my boob.*
So, it is with a heavy heart that I count down the days until Marley is officially off the daycare roster. At which point Jena may find us lurking outside her house and peering through the windows asking, "What are you guys doing today?"
*See May 30th post.
3 comments:
Dawnie, you are a great mommie! You will figure out how to juggle a baby and a toddler. They say being a Mom is the hardest job in the world but lots of people do it and so can you! I love you, you are great!
Well heck, Do you blame Marley for wanting attention all the day long, think of the things you did together before Amelia was born, I am sure he misses that, but He will adjust same as you will. You will find things that work just because you have no other choice. Don't sweat over the small things that Marley might do. Is it really all that bad? only really bad thing is if someone might die. so Look at his actions and if someone might die then I would worry. We can't let him get away with Murder eh? Give him a new job, Mop the floor? Wash a wall? who cares if its done right, it will keep him busy and feel so good that he helped Mommy. Breath and relax, I love you I love you
I'm sure you are going a better job than you think. You are a wonderful, patient, caring person and a great mother. A new 'job' is always a bit overwhelming in the beginning, but you'll figure it out! LOL
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